These are a few of our favorite things...
Meanwhile while quarentined, we've dusted our shelves and reorganized a few collectables and made a photo oportunity out of it.
Meanwhile while quarentined, we've dusted our shelves and reorganized a few collectables and made a photo oportunity out of it.
Breakfast at Tiffany’s Movie Poster
Blackscale Faux Book / keepsake container
Streetlevel Photography book by Sue Kwon
Lady Gaga x Terry Richardson, Tour Book
5. Retro Air Jordan 1
6. Christian Louboutin
7. Actual Family Feud Game Card // I attended a live taping Brought it home and thought it would be funny to place in a frame as a Family portrait.
8. Andy Warhol x Campbell Soup
9. Panatone Post Cards
I’m wondering when we grew apart..
when did we stop inspiring each other?
was i too vain?
was i too selfish?
did i not show enough passion?
sometimes, i see too much,
sometimes i fall deep as sea.
within a mere moment of a still image… sometimes, the contrast in black and white seems to be my favorite texture
theres no other way id rather add a “feeling” to the ‘chill in steal grey.
sometimes, i think of all the places we’ve traveled hand in hand, oh how my soul it fought so hard to flee..
i ran away from myself, just to find me again.. and you were there every time. assisting me in telling a better story… .
i know I owe a lot to you… you’re the only one who see's it just as I do..
though sometimes, it breaks my heart to feel our progress be as still as this image..
knowing i put all my passion in it… just to feel the energy drift away..
maybe i was too vein..
but god told me, “be selfish.. god told me, “be your own muse… most importantly “love you like, I love you…” and “do all you sought out to do…” “get lost, til you find you..”
oh how, my soul has fought to flee. no matter how many times i drift in the current of sea/ see. i pray it’ll always be •
-A.
Im writing this quick....
I don't wish to dwell to deeply for too long. Free flowing whatever comes to mind first, in this moment will mark as my truest feelings and thoughts.
2019 was a roller coaster that I somewhat enjoyed. I started a new job working as a producer and I was living on my own free to be and create as I please. Working on set daily pulled me out of my comfort zone and made me realize as much as I love working behind the scenes I enjoy being on camera just as much. A year into my new title and Two days after my birthday I had come to find out I would be collecting my last check as the company I worked for lost start- up funding. Just as I felt I was on the brink of me feeling like I've come face to face with my Sex in the City Carrie Bradshaw moment. Reality hit hard that I would in a way have to humble myself by taking two steps back and finding whatever job I could. Thankfully it landed me in a position to be working at one of LA's top streetwear empire's. Initially, I was hard on myself for feeling unprepared for brass change but quickly my attitude started to shift realizing I now have more access to network and meet people whom I would have to regularly attend a mass amount of events and hope to only run into. Granted status isn't everything but I believe smooth interaction can make a way for vast change through the power of genuine help and belief. Needless to say although financially I felt hardships I've found my soul to be more enthused about how good or bad - change is apparent. During the midst of job mishap I manage to invest in more at-home studio equipment and now I'm about 85 % done with having my little production in my apartment.
Prior to this moment, at the top of the year I received news that my mother whom was battling a very rough hardship had finally had a break through and that my prayers were literally answered. I remember being so full of joy that day that I even told people who weren't aware of her trials and tribulations that she had overcome, only to receive news two days later that my bio dad was on life support and I because I'm the eldest of his children I would have to be the one to make the decision over whether he lives or not. Looking back I know this moment was a vital learning moment for my spirit and truly made me understand how pure my heart is. I felt so powerful and powerless in the same breath. I rushed to Vegas and remember being on the plane in tears to the point my neighboring flight passenger went out of the way to grab tissue for me and gave me a strong look of faith that everything would be okay. One of the flight attendants moved me to first class and escorted me to Uber pick up and I remember thanking god in that moment for his earthly angels, As I arrived to hospital I was a mess. I walked up to the third floor of ICU and was greeted by a doctor who told me my dad just went into surgery. The saddest part of my experience was realizing I walked right passed him as I was walking in but he was so frail and unrecognizable I didn't notice him. That week I sat in the hospital day and night fighting a flee of emotions. I was happy to see progress , I was concerned thinking about what would happen after he recovers, and I was sad to be reunited with my two younger sisters under such terrible circumstances, and lastly I was angry with my dad dealing with suppressed emotions of his absence and feeling upset that I would have to be the most responsible when truth be told I can count the amount of times he showed responsibility over me. A tough fucking pill to swallow but I made it through and faced my most inner turmoil dead in the face, no matter the pain I felt I don't wish death upon anyone and wanted to see him survive even if that meant I would have to learn to forgive and forget instantly in order to make the most logical decisions.
Since then I've noticed I work much harder to find my day to day happiness. I try to look at things in positive light and complain a lot less. That moment taught me how precious life is and it also taught me no matter how deep of dark times, no one truly wants to die alone. I want to live a life full of love and abundance and will make it my purpose to do just that.
Lastly in between attending a few festivals and catching my favorite artist perform. During the brink of fall season I had an opportunity to record vocals in one of my favorite artist's studios. It was one of those nights that I dreamt of experiencing all the whilst it made me feel like an episode of Californication, granted there wasn't much drugs, sex nor rock and roll but the chance to have the opportunity Is the exact reason people move here to chase their wildest dreams. I won't go into crazy details about this night but its one I will often cherish and share at another time. For now I will just say I'm most proud of my bravery that night and will use the moment as constant inspiration.
Moving forward.
Im most excited for love, honor, respect, loyalty, determination, success and faith that 2020 will have in store. Im claiming it early. I know exactly what I want and the type of soul I wish to be with while obtaining what I want and creating a life we can cherish. My intentions are very clear and I will not play any games about it. If you're reading this we're deserving of it. I will not let us fall short of forgetting so.
As always thanks for rocking with your girl another year.
Be happy. Be great.
Best, Ash
Been in a Weird Space…
I've been in a weird space. ANTI everyone, myself included.
3 weeks ago I learned of the passing of my grandfather... right before my yearly self reminder of " this year I'm going to send him a birthday card", In the digital world we live in sometimes the simplest of task such as finding a card, filling it with heartfelt words and adding a stamp to carry the msg through is overshadowed by day to day life amongst the social media scrolls and whatever else of a bullshit excuse I may have had.
Usually, I cope with death pretty well. I cry, I mourn and then I carry on - remembering at some point we all will die. Shit, sometimes I mourn over people and circumstances that are still living and existing. I was struggling trying to understand why this death was different than any other death I've experienced before. I guess the news made me have to check my reflection and face my own truths. One being I've had this very long goal of enrolling in dance classes and mastering techniques that I could showcase to my grandfather as a way of thanking him for his teachings. He's embedded the expression of dance in me from a very young age - he was a trained ballroom dancer and use to drag me along with him to his dance rehearsals that I would sometimes have to step in as his dance partner. A big piece of me wanted so desperately to show him this grand routine as a way of thanking him / make him proud. The aftermath of procrastination only left me to sit with my own emotions for weeks feeling like a piece of shit for not following through with taking a dance class as well as not sending a card.
although the past few weeks have been a rollercoaster of emotions, I've come to terms and have forgiven myself. I've found my joy realizing I've gained an angel and will be more mindful not to put things off, no matter how much of an elaborate scheme I have in mind - I will remember to tell ppl I love them more than I love them not.
My breakthrough in this whole ordeal was learning that my grandfathers' final wish was to have his body donated to science and his remains to be spread across the ocean. I smiled hard knowing even on his exit he still went out as a rebel and I hope I can embody that same type of energy and spirit.
To my friends, family, supporters. Thank you for dealing with all of my colorful moods. I love you.
Rest in Paradise Grandpa Lonnie. 10/31/45 - 10/7/18
+ Fairwell 2017
the run down...
At the end of the year I like to conclude what I've learned throughout the year through the form of writing. Last year I wrote...
in 2017 i declare to be brave.. within my purpose, within my artistry, within my identity, within my expression, within my vunerablity, within my ability and will to love, within my praise for god above.
i pray to stand tall and brave. i pray somewhere within your journey we’re able to cross paths and relate to one another in some form or shape.
I pray you HAVE UR WAYYY.
blessings to you.
My intention for 2017 was very clear and direct... As I look back what I've come to be most proud of is my ability to DO EXACTLY AS I SET TO DO. I finally released my debut project HAVE UR WAYYY; the archives ... I've finally rebranded NO SUBLIMINALS and I've found an abundance of fulfillment by doing so. Through the art of self- expression being able to connect with people online some whom I've yet to meet in person who has offered such powerful words of encouragement has been truly one of the richest feelings I've felt in 2017. I use to be so timid to release my most passionate ideas into the world afraid of what people would think. That way of thinking was beyond hazardous to my self-growth and truly has been a big factor of me being at my own demise with my very own self sabotaging ways.
I vowed to no longer live this way. Why...? Well because I just want to be fckn happy. It's as simple as that.
Business wise in 2017 - I had to take two steps back and currently in the process of catapulting 3 steps forward. As much as I find joy in creating and being creative... I don't always enjoy the conflicts that come about through miscommunication especially in business. As a freelance creative sometimes the discussion of money is uncomfortable as fck. To overcome this truth - I took a class on Better Financing for Artist and Creatives via creativelive.com
Amongst dedicating a full weekend to this class... I started taking more classes on subjects I find interesting as well as taking classes that I would find broadcasting for free.
Mentally - Shedding light on a subject sometimes too embarrassed to admit... ready here goes... THIS YEAR I HAVE DEFEATED SEASONAL DEPRESSION. and it's a huge moment to celebrate.
For as long as I can remember I've never been fond of winter season / the holidays. This year I made a continuous effort in changing my train of thoughts over the season. Prior to this effort, I was the type who will go into hiding around the season, honestly because I'm not good at faking the funk or acting like everything is okay when it's not. The number one thing that helped me this year was to remember how much love is engulfed in the holidays and how you start to hear from friends and family you don't always have the pleasure of talking to.
For 2018.
I'm claiming happiness. I'm claiming an abundance of affluence, great health and I'm fully dedicated to becoming greater within my passions. I know in order to do so it is vital I keep myself balance emotionally, spiritually, physically and mentally. I will continue to work out and meditate I will continue to shed tears and not have too big of an ego to reach out to someone when I am in need. and I will accept the fact: I am (sometimes) Human and it's okay to be flawed and make mistakes. My wishes for this year is to travel more, love more, do more, and all while doing so... find ways to keep myself creative.
I'm wishing you a wonderful year - claim what you want and be direct because the power of intention is true. Check my links to witness.
With love
ASH
by: ASH WNSDAY // cc: NO SUB LIMINALS
Truly, 10,000 hours and then some later... I recorded this project in the privacy of my own home. Sometimes by ONLY the means of faith, love & support, along with the willpower to follow through. This is my first body of work where I was able to combine my artistry within the Audio & Visual landscape. This is my offering from my archives.
In part of my journey, I’ve experienced my fair share of luck within the pursuit of my longest dream. By age 16, I was signed to a record lable by 19 I was signed to a different lable – truth be told then - I had yet to reach my wisdom which has now lead to a much better story to tell. Although I loved writing, performing, and recording. I wasn’t too fond of the business aspect or at least a big portion of what I’ve experienced while being a signed artist. I walked away from the music industry though I never stopped recording.
For years I’ve continuously “closet recorded’ while making a name for my brand NO SUBLIMINALS. The universe had a way of keeping me close to my longest dream by allowing me to work with Artist... I’ve directed Music Videos, Album Artwork, assisted with Art Direction and I’ve had the pleasure of being present in many studio sessions as well as being Front row covering sold out shows.
I realized my soul may never know happiness if I didn’t claim my pursuit fully. I looked at
my experience both in front of and behind of camera as God’s gift in alignment to keep me connected to what truly brings me joy… Art + Music and the freedom to express.
While maintaining a part- time job working at Blackscale, freelancing as NO SUBLIMINALS
and being a Brand ambassador for Reebok. My tight schedule only allowed Wednesday free range to work on Have Ur Wayyy. Ultimately my only free day brought me to my rebirth as an artist, and also inspired an addition to my name. With no offence towards the religious holiday, ‘Though Respectfully the journey has been nothing short of spiritual.
I present to you.
Have Ur Wayyy : The Archive
By ASH WNSDAY.
If anything at all.
I pray you love me
for my tenacity
and grace.
with love,
luvs,
=)
In light of Mega's life day, 10/5 it's only right I bring this visual back to my timeline •. I haven't completely shed light on how special this moment was and still is.. to be 100% trusted to carry out the vision while gaining accessibility to capture these moments in spaces I can only dream and continue to strive to be in, a moment I will always cherish. I remember this night so vividly and have been solely dedicated to have the same confidence I did the night we captured this.
When I edited this, I thought I was done and final cut decided I was not and deleted all of the 1st edit... I had to start all over again on basically a 48 hr deadline to complete. - the silver lining is, the second edit was way better so it worked in favor! •
Blackscale x No Subliminals
starring the one and only
Cash Kenny.
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Back when I felt the need to tag every photo taken, I might of been editing to the tracks of lyrics featured..I can't remember clearly and that's a part of the story I can only hope to be true.
Besides that, all #facts Tae' and I have shot so many ill photo series together. We shot these images downtown, Las Vegas. The only plan set in stone was to use our energy, go out, explore, create, and follow through. The highlight is, we literally captured these images 20 mins into our venture and having a piece of Vegas monument's within the image itself reminds me just of how lucky I am to journey through art and travel with my best friend/sister ...
From the City of Sin to the City of Angels
Circa 2011
Featuring Tae' Merida
Downtown, LV
Transparency ᛫ Frequency
Exclusivity
᛫ Consistency
᛫ Longevity
Prosperity ᛫
n o s u b l i m i n a l s
I'd let my eye and curiosity run wild sometimes only to return home with a "Fist full of tears" while Maxwell's titled track scored my crying sessions.
As an artist/ creative and a lover of the act of evolving and becoming the greatest me.... For all that its worth... Sometimes I have to get up, go outside, snap some photos, and get lost til I find me and it becomes embedded in my mind that the time is coming. The most beautiful moment for me was realizing within perception, we have the power to change the Point of View in real time with or without a photograph of proof. Finding the beauty in the mishaps, there lives a peace of joy to inherit that feels similar to the euphoria of experiencing Deja Vu... Id like to considered those mere moments the universe's way to remind you, you are exactly where you need to be, right as you need to be there.
Here I Am., Right on time.. Finding my way, Daily.
Home is where the heart is....Home is where you take the time to look and care after... Whether that loving energy is giving to a physical place...or to a kindred spirit.
What makes your heart beat? For me, Attention to details. in both a physical place and the likes of a kindred spirit. Its all of the thoughtfulness... that lives in the skill and act of remembering that I find to be most endearing. I pay attention the most to what matters to me... both physically and spiritually.
Album featured : (from left to right:) 1. Washed Out - Within Without , 2. Slave Ambient - The War on drugs, 3. Dr. Dre - The Chronic, 4. Stevie Wonder - Innervisions, 5.Betty Buckley - Old Friend , 6. Frank Ocean - Ulta, Nostalgia,
Before moving to Los Angeles Id envision what Id imagined my LA apartment to look like. I knew I wanted a Record Room with 70's aura and lighting with a framed 'Nostalgia, Ultra Vinyl . I knew I wanted hardwood floors with an Art Decor .. In exchanging of asking for these things I told Jah, I was open to whatever hidden blessings Id discover throughout my stay in the space and that i would be mindful to pay attention. I had no idea things would feel and be this great. Although in the moment it felt like it took forever to get my setup to a point of my satisfaction.. Finding home gems for my creative space Is becoming a new passion project and theres still so much more to do but for now I find more and more ways to be apprecitive for all that I have and was able to manifest.
Shoes : Zara
Pictured Above: 1. I found this Piece at Nick Metropolis Collectibles, although slightly flawed and the artist unknown I couldn't walk away from this treasure the touch od orange compliments the accent in my decor. 2, Pantone PostCards on my vision part we're at the starting point of a future project. =)
Pictured Below : (From Left to Right) 1. 'To the World.. A gift from my Godfather and a picture of me and my nephew, 2. The Four Agreements, 3. Lighting Details.
+ 7 years Good Luck
REBRAND &ND REBIRTH.
I was torn... I truly was, wondering how I could combine all these worlds I've envisioned in my head. The very world(s) I escape to when the reality is too much to handle..
Someone once asked me to think back to my first moment with creativity and what was so special about it that kept me contentiously creating. That question haunted me.. for a very long time... I would think back to a moment only to remember another moment long before that, slowly connecting the dots embedded in my creative DNA. For what its worth, I know I fell in love with black n white imagery the first moment I laid my eyes on Lucille Ball on the I Love Lucy show. As a little girl, I would watch black and white television confused as to why the pigmentation of skin was various hues of grey. In my mind, the coloring of the film was the actual coloring of the era...with no filters - and all that was living was truly black and white. Though my journey has been nothing short of colorful. I decided to rebrand this entity in hopes we can get lost together as we travel through time, opportunity, and faith. It's finally time I've set free all of the dreams that live inside my idealistic imagination.
Although you won't see my personal image much throughout this entity, I wanted to create a realm in which we can tap into the creative mind and I'm able to share not only my art and artistic expression's but also shed light on a more than a few gems that have kept me inspired along the way.. Throughout my journey I've read many books , I've listed to hours of music of many genres, I've watched countless movies and I've study art as purely a fan with my own aspirations to one day have my own body of work circulating history in which someone just like me or maybe someone entirely different than me will take enough interest to study. That is the type of energy I wish to give + receive, I can't say what I will be the first woman to be and do. All I know is just like Lucille Ball I have the balls to want to be the first woman to be and do something that will carve a legacy in my own path. If anything, Id like to consider this a solid start into venturing through my very own history channel. I thank you in advance for tuning in.
Remember if this isn't the realm for you, you're encouraged to turn the channel.
- ASH.